5.01.2007

it's all about life!

k.u.s.u.t.
thats what i feel now.
huh,
seems like it's very complicated how im gonna describe about it.
ahh..life is simple actually but it is too complicated when we were into it.
but..why??
the answer is: i dont know why.huhu..
i am always wanna take a good care of others feeling,
but...nobody have ever try to take care of my feeling.
i am under stress.
im scared of being out of control.
thank god.now im still under control.
i love everybody around me.
but they make me feel very bad to them.
feel lik e i hate them so much.
but im not!
i feel like wanna cry.
but im scared if others find out that im not in a good condition.a good mood.
im worry if anyone around me worry about me.
the point is i just wanna everybody around me always happy.
but on the other side im hurting.
argggh!!
i wanna cry.
i wanna screm.
i wanna talk to someone.
but who wanna see me cry.
who wanna hear me scream.
who wanna listen to my story.
whoo???
ok.
edy or known as togok.
i found him was a good listener.
but..how come im gonna tell him everything i've felt.
he's no one.
he is just my brother's friend.
also a very new friend of me.
i know..he maybe can helps me a lot.
but i dont want to bother him.
i wanna my own life.
i dont wanna follow others.
i hate to be given an order.
im just only a human.
same as others.
why everyone wanna control my life?
im never ask for it!
im never!!
please..please..please..
i beg u guys.
let me live my own life in peace and harmony.
im just too tired to be like this.
and im scared if one day i will act out of control..
i dont want it.....

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5.01.2007

it's all about life!

k.u.s.u.t.
thats what i feel now.
huh,
seems like it's very complicated how im gonna describe about it.
ahh..life is simple actually but it is too complicated when we were into it.
but..why??
the answer is: i dont know why.huhu..
i am always wanna take a good care of others feeling,
but...nobody have ever try to take care of my feeling.
i am under stress.
im scared of being out of control.
thank god.now im still under control.
i love everybody around me.
but they make me feel very bad to them.
feel lik e i hate them so much.
but im not!
i feel like wanna cry.
but im scared if others find out that im not in a good condition.a good mood.
im worry if anyone around me worry about me.
the point is i just wanna everybody around me always happy.
but on the other side im hurting.
argggh!!
i wanna cry.
i wanna screm.
i wanna talk to someone.
but who wanna see me cry.
who wanna hear me scream.
who wanna listen to my story.
whoo???
ok.
edy or known as togok.
i found him was a good listener.
but..how come im gonna tell him everything i've felt.
he's no one.
he is just my brother's friend.
also a very new friend of me.
i know..he maybe can helps me a lot.
but i dont want to bother him.
i wanna my own life.
i dont wanna follow others.
i hate to be given an order.
im just only a human.
same as others.
why everyone wanna control my life?
im never ask for it!
im never!!
please..please..please..
i beg u guys.
let me live my own life in peace and harmony.
im just too tired to be like this.
and im scared if one day i will act out of control..
i dont want it.....

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