dilemma

"weh mari ambk aku.cepat skit!!"."aku balik kol 2.30"."bangun awal skit eh nk ajok g....."."cepat ah nk g......".ahhhhhh!bosang ah aku gini.ingty ak mender?hehs.blablabla.

sajesaje sukesuke

harihari yang sangat bosan.
lalu saye mengumol gambagamba yang ade.
lalu saye mengedit merekakereka ini.


maka dengan itu muncullah karya diatas.
ini dilakukan sekadar mengisi saat&minit yang ade.
sekian dari sedari pelangi aka. boneca.

boneca's story

haitt.nk mule story with "Happy Mother's Day & Happy Teacher's Day". rase nye mcm xlambat lagi untuk wish itu. :) boneca xtually xdela story sgt. just now boneca sgt terase life ni mcm tak berisi sgt sbb nw is cuti sem. & mcm bse bile cuti sem menjelma tak byk perkare yg warne warni akan berlaku. same color je will repeat everyday. quite bored xtually.bkn bosan berade di rumah. tetapi bosan dengan xtvt yg same berulang kali. everybody is busy with their own bisnes. pagi out for work/school. late evnin back hums. have a rest.watchin tv & sleep.same routine.& i got tired. wuarghh. aku yg done nutin plak yg tired. kije aku hari2 bgn.tnet jap.kua pasar/nanny's hum/ambk sist from skul/.back hum.tnet jap. jog(kalo cuace oke).nanny's hum.hums.tnet/watchin tv.sleep. tu je story boneca stakat ni. chow.

ayark!

sepertinya suda lame tak jot down samtin disini.sibuk sgt mungkin dengan hal-hal duniawi yang kadang-kala merimaskan hati.sibuk dengan test,assignment,presentation,maen-maen game.ehe sehingga tak sempat tuk berkata-kata.sempu dah!sampai sini je...got lots of thing to do.ciou~

Dear Mr.

Dear Mr.
i have a good impression about you
when the first time i saw you
you cute even you looked like a bonzer
you have took my heart away
started from that day
Dear Mr.
for the second time we have met
i know you did not recognize me
yet you did not see me at all
well i know who am i
just only a moondreamer
Dear Mr.
from that moment i keep thinking of you
and always hope for the best!
the best is i just wanna see you
even from far it is enough for me
because looking into your eyes is all i wanna be
Dear Mr.
i scared to be around you
because you are just like my enemy
i did not know you and of course you also did not know me
but i try to near you
but you..you do not give any chance for me
Dear Mr.
i am getting sick&tired of this situation
it makes me drown in my own sea
you never wanna understand
i dont put a high expectation
but i hope you can make it once..
Dear Mr.
now you are far away from me
till now you still do not know me
though you never want to and it makes me sick again
and plus i have lost your number
i hope with that way you are not in my mind anymore
Dear Mr.
i wanna say'enough'
i really sick&tired.
i'm not mad at you
i just cant stop thinking of you
i just daym miss you
Dear Mr.
sorry for disturbing you for all this while
i never meant to..never
is actually i just wanna tell you
that i miss you..
miss you so much!

-boneca cela

*nukilan ini sekadar suka-suka.sekian.

this is the life

Lyrics | Amy MacDonald lyrics - This Is The Life lyrics

test 1 sem 2 is miserable.

sedih.
felt very bad.
very very bad.
uhu i've sat a very bad test.
dont kno how to describe
it's just like a nitemare,a disaster.
arghhh..?
unprepared kot.
but then dah..
OBH quite ok la.
Discrete?ahh stupid ah.
tensi sgt test kali nih.
tak cam sem 1.
'berkecamuk hati' aku.
benci.benci.benci.
sgt tensi.sgt.sgt.sgt.
so mlm ni mlm tuk memekak!
yeah~
kalo dengar diam diam sudaa.

saat bulan berbicara-

bila rindu berbisik
hati jadi tak keruan
jiwa bergelodak makin kencang
bimbang pula ia berterusan

aku cuba lari dari situasi ini
curiga semputku datang lagi
pernah sekali aku menangisi
cukuplah itu buat terakhir kali

kemana lagi harus kulari
keutara selatan telah ku rentasi
namun kini dirimu muncul lagi
dalam khayalanku juga imaginasi

sukar untuk ku mengerti
keadaan ini sangat perit sekali
engkau tiada lagi disisi
tapi detik itu masih lagi kuingati

pedih untuk aku ungkapkan
tapi bila ia dipendam makin kelat
aku tak mampu lagi berdiri
cuma bisa kaku sendiri

kepada dirimu kutuju puisi ini
harap agar kau dapat mengerti
aku disini bukan menanti
tapi yang pasti cuma bisa bermimpi


boneca cela~

pengertian

pengertian&pemahaman amat penting apabila bermulanya sesebuah perhubungan.kerna itulah satu-satunya cara untuk mengelakkan sebarang sengketa.sengketa yang kadang kala manusia sentiasa cipta demi untuk mempertahankan maruah masing masing kononnya.lantas keegoan menguasai diri membuatkan manusia enggan tunduk pada kekalahan.pada sesuatu yang benar tapi mungkin tampak hina,cela pada pandangan mereka.tapi memafkan seseorang dengan pengertian &pemahaman akan membuatkan segalanya damai.tiada sengketa,hidup bahagia&segalanya indah.pengertian itu yang kita perlu ada untuk terus hidup.manusia aneh.sebab semuanya berbeza.aku tidak mungkin engkau dan engkau tidak mungkin aku.ego tidak akan membawa manusia kemana mana.bila ego menguasai diri ditakuk itu manusia sgt hina.mengertilah~

hate.

10 things I hate about you.

I hated when you talk to me

And the way you cut your hair

I hated when you drive my car

I hated when you stare

I hated your big dumb comb back boot

And you read my mind

I hated you so much you make me sick

And even makes me rhymes

I hated where u always rite

I hated when you lied

I hated you when you make me laugh

Even worst you make me cry

I hated when you not around

And in fact you didn’t call

But mostly I hated the way

I don’t hate you

Not even close

Not even a lil bit

Not even at all

*this poem is taken from a movie '10 things i hate about you'.

"hey you!I daym hate you..i daym hate the way i dont hate you,

not even close,not even a lil bit,not even at all!"

"dan sebenarnya"

oh bulan
jangan layan diriku lagi
pabila,
air mata membasahi pipi
dan lagu2 di radio seolah2 memerli aku
pabila,
kau bersama yg lain

adakah perasaaan benci ini sebenarnya cinta
yang masih bersemadi untukmu
dan sebenarya ku mengharapkan
di sebalik senyuman mu itu
kau juga merindui aku

ku enggan
berpura pura ku bahagia
ku enggan
melihat kau bersama si dia
oh ku akui cemburu
telah menular dalam diri
pabila
kau bersama yang lain

adakah perasaaan benci ini sebenarnya cinta
yang masih bersemadi untukmu
dan sebenarya ku mengharapkan
di sebalik senyuman mu itu
kau juga merindui aku

pabila kau merenung matanya
ku rebah,
jatuh ke bumi
di saat kau benar-benar mahu pergi
seperti ku bernafas dalam air

adakah perasaaan benci ini sebenarnya cinta
yang masih bersemadi untukmu
dan sebenarya ku mengharapkan
di sebalik senyuman mu itu kau juga merindui aku
oh–

dan sebenarnya..

aku rindu

dan sebenarnya...

ak tak mampu tanpamu..

shitty day

is actually this is a new song i've heard & i got it from rose. 'shitty day' songs by soko;
an indie singer from i dont kno france maybe. nice title rite.haha i've found that its lyrics is very
great & for sure i like it. its like the journey of my life is written there. so read it & get the meaning!

I hate myself today.
I don’t know what’s happening to me.
I hate my face today.
I think I look so shitty.

I have some sweat everywhere.
I’m not even shaved. My hair all greasy.
I look disgusting.

My eyes are glued.
My lips are chaffed.
My legs are prickling.
And plus I’m stinky today.

How can I date someone with a face like that?
I know you’re gonna dump me again,
And I am gonna cry.

Cuz you want a perfect girl,
And I’m not what you expected.
You want a perfect girl,
And I look shitty today.

Maybe I should put some makeup,
And find some crazy outfits.
But I am very tired today
And I don’t care if I’m not pretty.

Should be like these girls,
Skinny and great all the time.
I’m still wearing my slippers
And eat all the candies at home.

I should sleep more,
And stop going out everyday.
I should focus more,
And stop complaining today.

Tell me, How can I date someone with a face like that?
I know you’re gonna dump me again,
And I am gonna cry.

Cuz you want a perfect girl,
And I’m not so perfect.
You want a perfect girl,
And I look shitty today.

Tell me, how can I date someone with a face like that?
I know you’re gonna dump me,
And I am gonna cry


how can i face someone with a face like that?
huh,

music

Lyrics | Letters to Cleo - Cruel to Be Kind lyrics

sawade.ni lagu from film '10 things i hate about you'.
a very lame film. best cter ni & i enjoy a lot
with all the music&sound here.inspired.haha..
enjoy! lets kipom rawkin'.ciou

arigato.

ait ni karya terbaru dari aku.
saje aku coret kan disini untuk aku ingat.
aku ingat dimana semasa aku ukirkan karya ini dia dah ku buang jauh.
aku harap.

masih aku terpaku kaku disitu,
gusar berlaku tragedi ngilu,
walhal pengembaraan ini masih berliku liku,
masih aku terpaku kaku disitu,
bimbang halangan mendatang tak dapat disiku,
aku bukan sesiapa yang kuat mengaku,
padahal apa yang terpapar semua menipu,
aku kalut tapi kepala celaru buntu,
apa hidup aku harus bernokhtah disitu?

home!

yeah.im home already bout a weeks lebih kot.da lame tak hadap tenet ni.mlm ni je tebukak ati nk hadap jadah ni.ngeh3..kenape ek?ade ape yang tak kena ngan aku sbenar nye ek?ak pn da get kompius nih.kenkadang happy but sometimes ak mudy giler..tataw la. "berkecamuk hati,hatinya sendiri persoalannya kini sampai bila mampu ku bertahan mampukah ku bertahan uooo..!" ahh! sungguh berkecamuk.balik balik die lagi yang bertandang.bukan depan mata jauh sekali nk bertandang kat umah tp kat hati ni.x paham aku..sungguh aku tak mengerti akan perasaan&keadaan ini sungguh kacau sekali. ahh! lagi dari aku. apa lagi patot aku lakukan untuk melenyapkan bayangan itu dari kotak ilhamku.aku betol2 buntu memikirkan perihal ini.semacam bengong ade jugak.begok+sengal+ntahpape! huh,betol ke ape yang ak rase ni? "inikah cinta?" atau aku je yang suke bermain dengan perasaan sendiri yang entah bile ak nk layan perasaan ni pn ak tak tahu.tak pasti langsung.itu yang pasti! aku benci! aku sakit sangat aku tak tahu nak rawat macammane lagi aku buntu.aku...ahh!

jiwa saya kosong

hello there,
baru je sampai kat bilik ni..
baru balik dari exam.
so far dah 3 paper dh lepas
tinggal 2 lg killer paper.
paper yg dh lepas ni..
alhamdulillah la boleh buat.
then next paper 1,2/11 ni arghh!
killer paper multimedia & java.
hrp2 dpt la buat nt.
kne study.study.study.study.
1st sem ni ak kene score tinggi
tuk back up pointer dpn2 nt.
huh,
actually...
entah hari ni cm agak moody je
tp cm biase la ak buat2 happy..
entah...tak tahu le ape yang sedikit
mengganggu pikiran aku ni.
x dpt nk trace lagi stakat ni..
maybe sebab pet ak kt facebook
ak namekn ngan"BOBO" kot..
haiihh..
dont kno la..
penim aku dengan hidup sendiri.
payah betol.
suke menyusahkan diri.
sekse perasaan sendiri.
abis salah aku ker?
tak mengerti la..
sukar nak ditafsirkan..
malah payah untuk diramal.
tak pe la harap pasni aku boleh lebih tenang dan
dapat study multimedia&java ngan tenang.
aminnnnnn...

• so untuk menenangkan gelodak jiwa yang kosong ini kita layan dulu lagu ni,
  

'ROCK 'n' ROLL'

Selamat Pagi Gadis!

Hell-o!
today i'm wake up early

bcos...
my parent is coming
and will take me around.
ngeeeee...
while waitin' for them
what else i can do..??
let's SNAP!!
hehs,

it's killin' me.

before this.. when im starin' at you.. hope somethin' will happen between you and me.. maybe not now and here.. but someday.. who know.. suddenly... one day i heard it accidently.. and it's hurtin' me a lot.. maybe you are not for me.. i know at first i saw you.. you just only a shadow of 'him'.. and hope that i do not have to face you again.. and please... get out of my way.. please..

di pagi dinihari

jam menunjukkan pukol 4.50 pagi.still cannot sleep yet!as usual.waiting for sahur &subuh then br tido kot.quite busy lately.it seems like dh lame ak tak mengupdate blog ni.ingt dh luput hu3.last post pn last year.tu pon 2 post je.pagi ni pon bkn la nk bebel byk just nk post someting sbb dh lame x post pape.k la t ade mse akn ku coretkn hari-hari yg dilalui nanti disini!tata.

it's all about life!

k.u.s.u.t.
thats what i feel now.
huh,
seems like it's very complicated how im gonna describe about it.
ahh..life is simple actually but it is too complicated when we were into it.
but..why??
the answer is: i dont know why.huhu..
i am always wanna take a good care of others feeling,
but...nobody have ever try to take care of my feeling.
i am under stress.
im scared of being out of control.
thank god.now im still under control.
i love everybody around me.
but they make me feel very bad to them.
feel lik e i hate them so much.
but im not!
i feel like wanna cry.
but im scared if others find out that im not in a good condition.a good mood.
im worry if anyone around me worry about me.
the point is i just wanna everybody around me always happy.
but on the other side im hurting.
argggh!!
i wanna cry.
i wanna screm.
i wanna talk to someone.
but who wanna see me cry.
who wanna hear me scream.
who wanna listen to my story.
whoo???
ok.
edy or known as togok.
i found him was a good listener.
but..how come im gonna tell him everything i've felt.
he's no one.
he is just my brother's friend.
also a very new friend of me.
i know..he maybe can helps me a lot.
but i dont want to bother him.
i wanna my own life.
i dont wanna follow others.
i hate to be given an order.
im just only a human.
same as others.
why everyone wanna control my life?
im never ask for it!
im never!!
please..please..please..
i beg u guys.
let me live my own life in peace and harmony.
im just too tired to be like this.
and im scared if one day i will act out of control..
i dont want it.....